Longing...

My favorite day at work is Saturday. Why? Because I see lots of moments like in the pictures below. Father and child bonding. Yes, they never fail to make me smile and I dream that someday, I might be able to see my husband in this scenario, too.

Layla With her bubbly Daddy, Dominic

Emma with her energetic Daddy, Daniel

Deep in my heart, I feel I bit sad, too. I have been married for 5 years, and sorry to say that we have no child yet. When I see my beloved carrying someone else's child, I can feel the sadness in him and that is like a stab in my heart. When I see these fathers, I long to see my husband to experience this as well. I know he can be the same, or maybe much more better. I know, he will be a good father if God will give him a chance. That is why I agreed to marry him, I know he will be a good father to my children. He is a gift from above. Given to me unwrapped, but never fails to surprise me until now.

But frankly speaking, at night when I pray, I do not ask God to give us a child. I just always ask Him to give what is best for us. With or without child, we are so happy anyway. God knows best. May His will be done.

Romans 8:28

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, 

who have been called according to his purpose.